roller coaster

Oh I haven't written in so long.... I was recording the play-by-play but it got exhausting.
In April he asked to see me, said he wanted to have the talk he should have had with me instead of breaking up.  And I went, and we held hands and kissed and I was so happy, then then next day he freaked and said I hadn't listened to his concerns.
And similar scenarios repeated, two or three more times.  He would reach out to me, I would go to him (and once there was sex) and then he'd last a week before he would cancel our date, or dodge making plans for our next one.

So at this point we're together, about ten days.  I had told him I couldn't do the 'maybe' thing anymore.  He said he needed time.  I thought it was over (and went through a little withdrawal, even though I thought I had made my decision).  We didn't talk for a few days.
Then he told me his company got sold and he's not sure he had a job.  I was sympathetic, he invited me over for dinner.  I didn't know what was going to happen.  I thought I was going as a friend.
We played boardgames and footsies under the table got a little risque.  I stopped him, crying-
You're being bad.
I want to be bad.
Am I your girlfriend?.

He said, 'What does all or nothing look like?' I said, I don't want to move back in.  I need to figure more stuff out, but I need you to be there.'  (i was proud of this answer, at the time).
He said, Okay.
And we've been texting, and I see him every few days.  This weekend I slept over for the first time.  Weird, because I used to live there and now I'm a guest.  And weird, because we know each other so well, and yet we don't know the rules.
But.
It didn't feel right.  I found him a little boring, talking about his craft project endlessly, making the same comments at the same spots in the same tv shows.  We went to a busy convention and he got overwhelmed by the crowd and was rude to a friend of mine that we bumped into.  I was longing for some emotional closeness and was left hanging.
And I found Plenty of Fish online dating still open on his computer.

And when I left, he didn't want to see me the next day, said he had things to get done, even though we'd talked about seeing a movie.  I burst out crying.  He hugged me and said we'd see each other soon.  When i got home he said he got tickets for the movie.

I'm really not sure any more.  The first time we got back together it was like a dream.  Now it's getting farcical.