All the things happen. (and a TMI section.)

Did I only meet him yesterday?  This is going to be a long week....

Woke up this morning to find that Walrus had texted me at 1am to let me know he had bought eco-friendly cat litter. Good to know.

Then Walrus and I had a text discussion about the Oscars.  I thought the host's jokes were very offensive to everyone but white men.  He thought it was no big deal.  Oh, before that I simply said, 'Thanks for giving me space.  I'm ok now' and he said 'Good to hear it, did you watch the Oscars?'
Same as it ever was.
The offensive/not-offensive debate sorta summed up how he deals with other people's feelings.  The jokes weren't offensive to him, and so anybody who did take offense was overreacting.

In the afternoon I heard back from one of last week's interviews.  I was offered a job working with kids and I took it, although it is only part-time.

Saw Walrus at meditation class and was absolutely calm.  Just have let go of all emotions around him.

Newfie has added me on facebook and has just written me a message right now.
I have thought about him all day. I really want to see him again.

And now for too much information....my body is being weird and I need female advice.

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My body does this weird thing.  Sometimes when I think about sex, my abdomen tightens up.  Like as if my uterus is being squeezed.  It's always very quick, a mix of pleasure and pain.
When it happens I talk to my body in my mind: 'Sorry, stuff down there!  I know what you want, but when you had the chance, you didn't co-operate, did you?'

The first time it happened I was completely taken by surprise "What in the hell was that?"

It doesn't happen often, once, twice a month.  I have to be thinking about sex in a certain way.  Not fantasies- I've seen sexy scenes in movies, and erotic images, and feel nothing.  No, it has to be a more realistic scene than that- in fact, it's simply the thought that I might actually be having sex at some point in the future, and me believing it.

I'm pretty sure these squeezes didn't start happening until after I had some sexual experience- before that sex was a remote a possibility as a trip to the moon.
It's really a bizarre feeling.  Does this happen to other women?
Because today it has happened almost every time I think about Newfie.  I'm not even thinking that far ahead!  I haven't even hugged him.  But reading his answers to the sex questions on the dating site brought the issue to the forefront, where it was quickly repressed.  I spent an uneasy hour pondering my sexual morality and have to admit I have no idea what I think about this stuff.  I think I'm fairly vanilla but who knows?  I might have some kinks I haven't had a chance to discover.  I'm still working on the basic physical act.

Sexual awakenings - pretty sure they're usually awkward, and I'm way overdue...
I'd like to be a healthy adult mammal now.

Well this is all rather overwhelming.